I finally fell in love around April 10th of last year. I thought things were good — love blinds you so badly. I’ve never been treated so horribly in my life. Writing this makes me just want to burst into tears. I can’t believe I let myself become so gullible. The worst type of love is the kind that ends on a bad note. It was no easy way out. He’s turned me into a monster, it’s only my choice to snap out of it. Hopefully one day I’ll be able to love again and laugh once I think about how much I have been through. But until then I have no choice but to forget all about it.

I got accepted to all of the colleges I applied to! (:

Got rid of all my ex flings and love interests. Focusing on myself has never felt so good!

On a mission to get back in shape. Just because you’re skinny does not mean you are healthy or in shape!

I’m not feeling twitter anymore, I’ve been having deep thoughts. That aren’t for the world to know.

there are no perks in growing older.

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? i know they do.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? yes.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? Everyday.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? Yes.
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? No.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? Yes.
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? boyshorts and a polo.
8. How often do you listen to music? Everyday.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Sweats.
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? Not really.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? Both.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’? yes.
13. What about ‘S’? Yep.
14. Can you drive a stick shift? No.
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? Semi.
16. Are you going out of town soon? Yes.
17. When was the last time you cried? Probably last week.
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? Yes.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you? Yes.
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. Yes.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? Very,
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? No.
24. What are you sitting on right now? My bed.
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? Yes.
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yes. =\
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Marcial.
28. Do you get a lot of colds? yep.
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? Express.
30. Does anyone hate you? I’m sure.
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? Yes, but they aren’t hidden.
32. Do you like watching scary movies? Yes.
33. Do you want your tongue pierced? Already had it done.
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? Hmph, tough question.
35. Did you have a dream last night? Yes.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Today.
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Nah.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Hopefully.
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? No.
40. Did you have a good day yesterday? No.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? No.
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yes.
44. What’s the best part about school? Getting an education.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? Yes.
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? Use to.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? Yes.
48. Were you single over the last summer? Not until the end.
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Not at all.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? Resting.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? No.
52. Are you nice to everyone? Mostly.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yes.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? No.
56. Do you think you like someone? Yes.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’? Yes.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? Both.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? Yes.
60. Do you hate anyone? Slightly.
61. How’s your heart? eh, could be better.
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? Yes.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy? Yes.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? Bum Bitches.
65. Are your toenails painted pink? Yes & purple.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? Hopefully not..
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? Si.
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? Yah.
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? Mommy.
70. How do you look right now? a mess.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? yes.
72. Can you commit to one person? yes.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? yes.
74. Have you ever felt replaced? yes.
75. Did you wake up cranky? yes.
76. Are you a jealous person? yep.
77. Are relationships ever worth it? yep.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on? yeahh.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone? yes.
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? school.
81. Last person you cried in front of? coworkers.
82. Is there someone you will never forget? yes.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? yes.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? cuddling. [:
85. Are you over your past? Somewhat.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? Nope.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? Yes.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? Sure.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? No.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Yeah.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? Who knows, most likely not.
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? Yes.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? Nope.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? Yeah, sucky. i left him
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? YES, LOVED HIM.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? My mama, YEAAH.
97. Who do you have texts from? Phones lost.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Ok.
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Always.
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? Nobody baby.
101. Ever kissed under fireworks? No.
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? Yah.

i put it on hold..

friends aren’t going to pay my bills.

friends aren’t going to get me through college.

friends won’t support my family and feed my kids later in life.

heavilyblunted:

In reality, I’m competing with a billion other women who are more beautiful, intelligent, and have more to offer than I. With bigger hearts, wallets, eyes and booties. 

So what the fuck am I?